Good Afternoon – I tried! Really I tried to convince myself that I was good and everything was going to be fine. But actions speak way louder than words!
My goals in life are really to help as many people as I can, with whatever tools I have that they need help with. I have ALWAYS been that person that figures things out and distills them down for others to use. I’m technical. I’m detailed. I’m easily bored – so I’m always looking for new and interesting things to do and learn. I KNOW I am on the right path with my Beachbody business – BUT I watched a video yesterday from one of the top Coaches that was an ah-ha moment. This business is huge. The potential is HUGE. BUT until I fix myself – I’m no good to anyone else.
I feel like a fraud trying to lead people when I can barely lead myself on a daily basis. I try. I slip I fall – I get back up and try again. And this is how I live my life. I’m going to keep trying and keep slipping and keep falling. Probably the number one issue I have at this moment is my personal desires (enjoy my time with my husband – dinners and drinks) are not lining up with my long term goals (lose weight and build my business). So, I guess until my burning desire to be thinner and a successful business owner out weighs my desire to spend time with my husband * relaxing * I will be stuck in this endless loop of wanting to try yet feeling guilty.
So for a while – I am going to stop beating myself up. I’m going to focus on this leadership class I joined that starts tonight (start fixing me). I have also volunteered my time to help a local dog rescue get a website up and running and I feel super about that! I had goals of helping at a dog rescue this year – but I have HUGE anxiety around trust and dogs so I was not sure how I was going to reach that goal of helping animals – I just figured out how to mesh my personality and skills with a hole they have!
I’ll share the site with all of you once it is up and pretty! Then you can find your next pet or just help support a good organization 🙂