Well – I’m still alive and kickin’ Been going to physical therapy for almost two weeks. I’m at that stage where things kind of hurt a bit more than when I started – but its a different kind of hurt and all part of the process.
Been taking care of me and working on some quilts that really have taken far longer than they should have to get done. I’m planning on starting the 21 Day Fix with a large group in December – so next week I’m going to work out with my DVD’s on the day’s I don’t have PT – because really on the days I do – I hurt the rest of the day.
Don’t want to sound like a broken record – but Hey, come join me in this round of 21 Day Fix! Don’t you want to end the year already headed towards your 2016 Goals?
I have two weddings next year – UGH – I can NOT go to my boys weddings looking like I do. I do not like how I look right now and there will be pictures to document these occasions and I don’t want to look back at those pictures over time and hate myself each time I see them!
I started down this fitness road over 13 years ago. I took the first step to a better me one day. That was it just one day I made the decision that I was done. This is the realest I will ever get with you – all of you that I have no idea who you are – but I’m about to open up to you all on a level that is really uncomfortable – but needs to be done.
In October I went to see Sagi Kalev live in Michigan his speech made me cry that day – He wanted us to think back to why we started all of this. Our path to better heath – our choice to help others and if we were not where we wanted to be, we needed to go back at think about why we started.
Mine was a two stage thing – and to be honest I have lost track of both of my why’s.
My first Why: Why did I decide to lose wight and get in shape? One night my husband and I were making love – and I could feel the fat on my body moving. I was horrified! If I could feel it, surly he could see it! That is not the image I want my husband to see when we make love. And just to be clear – He never said a WORD! This was not my husband telling me to change or he didn’t like seeing it. This was me and how I felt about me and the body I was sharing with him and I was not proud – I’m not very proud today. I must get back to my why and feel proud again.
My second Why: Why did I start this business? For the last 26 years I have watched my husband get up and go to work to a job that has taken so much of his time and kept him from family activities. It has brought many years of frustration, but he would never walk away because it was his job to make sure the family had all that we needed, even if it meant that he missed a few dinners. I joined Beachbody as a Coach because I could see what an amazing business opportunity it is. I was already doing the things a Coach does; I was helping people and pointing them to the programs that best fit their goals. This is just who I was and I loved the programs 🙂 So it made sense to me to take the next step. In fact I planned my step. I was making my plan before I graduated college, I knew I could not take it on while finishing my classes but, boy when they were done – I was going there – and I did!
Then all of the “stuff” started to get in the way. Mostly in my brain. “Who am I to be successful in business?”, “Who wants to listen to me?”, “Why am I doing this?” “No one wants to do this with me, so why do I keep trying?” – ALL of those things go through my head so many times in a year-month-week-day! But here I am still trying and because of the fact that my husband still has to miss family events – I will be here and I will keep trying. When I finally get him the opportunity to make a change – I’ll set a new goal – a new WHY. Because I know this is an amazing business and I will keep working on me and I will get to the point where I stop asking those questions and just know that I am doing it for you. You that one day will finally stop hiding and step forward and ask for help. You that just found this blog 5 years from today and feel like you have lost pride in yourself and want to find it again. You that was looking for some help in starting your own business to leave one behind that you don’t love.
I’m here for you. I’m human. I’m going to fall 1000 times, but I’m going to stand up 1001.