Seems the last post I posted was 4/27. Now it’s 10/12 and I don’t know that I have moved ahead much in the last 6 months.
We built a fence this summer – That was fun and looks nice.
My son got married. That was fun.
I’ve been hit and miss with my diet and exercise. I finished a sold round of 21 Day Fix Extreme leading up to the wedding and lost a solid 7 pounds in 3 weeks. I did a second round after the wedding and lost another 6. Then things started falling off track again. It’s hard. When you have a mind set of “I’m being deprived” it’s really hard.
I spent this past Friday night in the ER – AGAIN. I am having a diverticulitis flare-up and it’s kind of made me take a mental break and think about my health. I am making sure I eat a solid meal before I take each dose of antibiotic. The pain is gone. Now I’m just dealing with the aftermath. Nasty antibiotics that are messing with my entire system. I’m tired and want to sleep all the time. I feel like my limbs weigh a ton – but it’s a means to an end. I will get better.
I applied for a new job in my company. I just found out last night that I didn’t get it. AND I didn’t console myself with sweets – Winning.
I un-followed pretty much everyone on Facebook a month or so ago that was making me feel like a loser. Successful people all around, making me feel like I was not. But I am! Just a different kind of success.
Just doing that I have felt better mentally.
I have sent a request off to the college that I graduated from to get some information on a Masters. I don’t need it. No one is telling me I have to do it. I need something to keep my brain busy. I don’t like to have too much un-productive time. Now I could do all sorts of things with all of this time. I have quilts I want to make and other crafts I would love to try. But for some reason I’m not! I can find every excuse in the world as to why I’m not. Truth is I don’t know. I do know I need to be needed. I need something to drive me and I don’t have that right now. I think I accomplished more in the 12 years I was going to school for my BS than in the last 4 since I graduated.
Who knows – I just got my craft room moved upstairs where my office used to be so maybe I will have some space and desire to get working on stuff again. I have several things planned for gifts – so I better do something lol.
I have more thoughts – I just need to organize them. I may be here more – then again …the best laid plans often go awry.